Illumina's Blog - Illuminating Christ in us

2006-01-03T00:14:00.000+08:00

Monday evening, Joyce jioed for bridge again. So went over to Vince house to play. While waiting for Pat, we played tai di and bluff. Wah bluff sinful game man haha. Pat put aeroplane around 9+ luckily Charlotte and Andrew came over around ten and this is where all the nonsenses started. Started with bluff, then tai di, then to indian poker with drinking water, to in-between with drinking water. The guys started improvising in-between and finally concluded stupid. LOL We got tired after the games so just chit chat lah. Joyce started with a question, "What will you do your if your friend told you he/she robbed somebody?" Wah really tough question man. Then everyone started sharing. From dryness in ministry because of critics and etc. Something I learn from charlotte about accepting critism, instead of letting the critics hurts you, always fall back to your source of motivation. Was is god driven/centered? If it is god-driven/centered and the critism helps you to improve, take it and improve it. If not let it pass without affecting to you too much. Another question was whether you do something for god and quoting an example like how many people you save. I like Andrew's illustration on the felling of trees where you are walking down the path, giving a chop to the trees. You may or may not be the one felling the trees but you are part of the process.

Aiyah forgot my thoughts liao. nvm shall just post this.

2006-01-01T16:39:00.000+08:00

Just reach home not long ago. Had the first core meeting. Yes in core liao and it exactly matched the vision I had a few months ago. All the bible studies, thoughts finally starting to reconcil, and the road is appearing. Today's message was about god wants to do a new thing in your everyday life. That exactly match my goal too. Learning new things everyday. I know I won't have minds like vince, but I do have an altitude to learn, to try out new things and yes i'm a action person as well as a perfectionist. That's all I have to give to you god. God you ignite and sustain my passion for you and I will run for you.

God I pray for a few areas in my life.
1. Have more time for you god, I'm sorry I don't spend enough time with you lord and I ask for your forgiveness. Let me rearrange my time for you god.
2. Empowered me with your words and HS lord. I really need them badly.
3. Equip me with music that pleases you lord.
4. Career, lord my work is getting tougher each day and it's taking alot of my time. Lord I just pray you sustain the company and the workload lord.
5. Dreams, lord I pray for open doors as well on this area
6. Investment, lord I just pray that 12dp will continue to sustain as long as possible lord. I'm praying for this substential amount of income to come in handy lord.

Ok it's a brand new year and a brand new start. Let's go and ganbatte! I know this year will be a ultimate harvest year for me!

2006-01-01T05:57:00.000+08:00

Hoho new year liao 2006. Haven't been sleeping since last night. Was searching and reading other people's blog. The search engine is just an amazing tool. Sometimes by typing the person's name or email address, you never know what interesting result you may get. Haha.

As usual, i seldom failed in finding out what I want to know. The last few days work is horrendous... even have to OT on friday night. Sometimes work is really killing me and boss keep having new ideas which excites me and at the same time frightens me. In the technical expects of IT, I'm pretty all rounder by now, from networking to systems, to databases, to even web and to now programming which I really hates it. haha. Not that I hate programming but I just can't perform under tight datelines and all those nights that I'm strugglings, it's always programming. Getting real dry at it.

Well since there's no cell on fri (actually I really wish to have one that night) i'm so bored that night then I forgot, I promised Joyce to have a game of bridge one of these days. Somehow God open the way, managed to get Min, and Vince in the end and really took me lots of effort to find ppl that night. Search my entire phonelist, just couldn't find one more player haha. I'm glad that we had fun that night. Seeing vince blurness by the game reminds me when I first started out too haha. I'm still confused at times but I think I can handle the game better now.

Today, arrange with est to fix her comp. went over at 11 and did till 4.30. This time round chated with kes and her mum as well. Just realised all same pattern one. hahaha quite envy to see such a close bond family. Felt happy for them. Sometimes I just wish I had something similar. Well I don't know if that day will ever come, but i'm pretty sure I can always start a family that is god focus and love centered. Went for watchnight service at 8. Thank gdness est called, if not I would have overslept. haha. Today I think I gave alot of business to the taxis. from my house to est, from my house to church, from church to tamp, to changi then to east coast and from east coast to bedok south and back home. wah, i think today i really spend alot on cab. haha Anyway it's amazing to hear all the testimonies, like how god heal, encourage to wait for god, his timing is always perfect, how god gave life to a chapel session. Seeing god gdness, it's really comforting that i serve a great and almighty god. Hmm dunno why suddenly I felt the spirit telling me to wait for god's answer and don't give up. Gd things need time and effort to press grapes to wine, from olive to oil and the process is the most crucial part. Not sure what thing is HS going to tell me. Ok let's move on, after watch night, send pam and shu yun back, went to east coast lagoon to have supper with est, pat and lupin. Just knew a new thing, east coast closed at 3am. hahaha. Quite a gd fellowshipping tonight. Hopefully est can wake up for service loh if not i will feel bad man.

One more day and work is going to resume. This time round, wed is a company OT night. fri cell and either tue or mon guitar. So i'm left with tues or thur for activities. I will probably start running soon and oh yeah bs. We stop for quite a while and hmm ok looks good, my week is taken up fully again. This year, I should really start a routine of reading to grow in GK and to grow maturally spiritually. I really hate books... but I think this is exactly the new challenge for myself.

Blaggering for 1+ hr, i think i should just catch some slp b4 service starts. Today will be another long day.

2005-12-24T21:09:00.000+08:00

This evening is a real bored day. Everyone seems to have their own plans and looks like I got stucked at home. This is exactly the kind of time where loneliness will creep in and the kind of time I hate the most. What do I do to kill of time? Thoughts again.

Tmr is christmas! I never understand the true meaning of christmas until I accepted Christ in 2003. A day where my lord died for the world and most impt for my sins that I have done. To resemble my own experience to what Christ has done on the calvary is like blessing others with gifts. I'm not a generous person when it comes to money. In fact, i'm selfish on it because it really pains me when I part it not for myself because I always have to slought like mad just for a pathetic few thousand dollars and I don't get things by asking. Everything I own for myself is really hard earned either by hook or by crook. But this is precisely the point, everytime I really blessed somebody with gifts especially those big ones it's like slicing my flesh with a knife. Of coz mine is nothing compare to my father above lah, he went through trials and torture and gave up his life for the sins of the world just to exchange righteousness for everyone who accepts him. I'm glad that my favourite way of blessing others now is not as tough as it's use to be. It's just that I have to manage my cashflow better. This year pretty fierce, I really blew a big hole in my pocket, nearly half my bonuses in christmas gifts and presents and I gave a **** broke ah. Nevertheless, i'm glad that these 2 years I learn alot in terms of love, friends, goals, priorities, temper control, relationship matters, commuicating, humblesness, to bless, to give, to pray for others, to give moral support, to commit, to even read and discipline myself.

The thing that hit me alot sometime ago was on friends issues. At one point of time in my life, I don't know what does friends means to me until an incident I was very depress sitting outside church during cell group and roland and andrew came out to look for me. If friends have a few levels, they are friends that give me steriods, pick me up and walk with me when I'm too tired of walking. So I told myself if any of my friends are at those depress state, I will do the same as well. There's one kind of friend I always envy to have is those that you grew up with and know you inside out, and you can share everything with the person under the sky. Girl - girl "best friends" of such, I heard alot but I never seems to come across any guy-guy one. Wierd. Perhaps it's just happens that I don't have alot of guy friends huh, even the cell that god put me in is all gals. LOL. I know he put me there for a purpose, but until now I still cannot figure it out. One thing I learnt, you got to take a step first and do your part. Call, talk, get the person out, do some activities together and earned the person's trust and 1-1 is the best. There's where you get to know the person better. There's one thing i realised about myself is i'm a freaking ice block myself. People got to break my ice instead of me breaking others. LOL

Anyway, was reading my friend's blog on her broken relationship. Kinda sets me thinking of my own too. Not that I ever have one to mention. But it just quite wierd thinking of the past few times I tried to so call "court" by "getting to know the person better", the more i get to know the person it's always like not the person's type or most of the time I just entered at the wrong timing so to speak like people in the process of getting attached already. It's a good thing that i can cope with crushes very well not that I have alot of them lah. And I'm begining to like expressive gals that can chat alot and the best is she herself is an entertainment center. I used to like gals that are quiet, demure but I realised i'm one big piece of ice myself. Both parties that doesn't talk is like building mount everest loh...

Let's me think of my my own listing, everytime i tell ppl to do i myself never do. gd lah since i'm so bored so out some draft first, then got time then refined and reorg and recategorised and i'm pretty sure some of them are not right.

1. Expressive girl
2. Chatty nature
3. god focus
4. "Sunshine looking", dunno how to describe lah but this are the kind of girls see liao I very happy one. abit lame and corny.
5. There's this particular "feeling" I really like alot. Dunno how to describe also but it will keep me on fire and passion for very long and I'm very loyal one. I thot I lost it forever 5 years ago, I found it recently, but too bad just not my turn yet so got to wait for probably another 5 years. Argh sian...
6. Godly girl, ahhh wait, maybe half-godly will do not that I dun dare to claim it, it's just can't match it myself either.
7. talented and intelligent.
8. Outgoing, adventurous
9. family focus girl
10. Rich. muahahahaha machiam sugar mummy like that. My office girls always say must aim for rich guys, i think i also want to aim for rich gals loh. hahaha
11. Oh yeah "low-maintenance" hahaha just got reminded. nah this one not really big issue.

Wah now I look at my list, no wonder i cannot find lah too high expectation hahaha, Anyway this is what happens when I get ultra bored.

Last few months like gave alot of "relationship" counselling to quite a no of people. I realised it's quite difficult when it comes to christian - non christian relationship. It's like as a christian myself, I shouldn't be encouraging on such relationship but yet I also cannot say dis-encouraging words. Squeeze in the middle... "gek tio". But I think there must be a reason why God allows such situations to happen. Probably for them to learn something out of it. So I prefer to be in a position to hold their hands tight to god preventing them from backsliding.

Ok lah enough about relationship. I go bath first and I don't think i'm sleeping early tonight.

Ok back. hmm 7 days to new year. Maybe think of new year resolution since i'm so bored anyway.
1. Finish my believer music guitar course. but wah course getting more and more expensive leh. 4 more module and each module costing me $200+. Probably looking at 1k.
2. Maybe aim for some traveling this year like new zealand or whatever that have adventureous activities like white water rafting or snowboarding, snorkeling. 3k
3. Feel like furthering studies, but financial is always the one holding me back because study will take me 3 years. Hmm maybe SMU comp info sys mgmt. Nus comp sci i think too stress liao. NTU, 4get it lah too far... 24k without daily expenses. 50k probably?
4. class 2b? i still quite reckless leh, van already got accident liao. Dunno should take or not. 1.5k
5. chg comp to dual core with 2 20" cinematic lcd. yeah in my dreams... 4k.
6. partner searching? I think abt time. getting old liao. haha
7. Feel like stretching and develop my creative and artistic side of me. I know i'm an art idiot. Learn social dance? hmm no balls leh. 1k
8. Got to grow in god especially sensitivity to HS. I'm just beginning to crawl liao probably have to invest in here abit.
9. Reading books?
10. I want to do something challenging again this year. but running might be out for a while coz i can feel my kneels are not right somehow. biathlon? sounds fun but big investment again coz need to learn to swim and buy a racer! nvm will decide again when I come across.

Piang my new year resolution like spending $$ again. Cashflow mgmt also not enough ah. looks like i better find a new way to earn income. Hmm probably overseas investment, income earns no under taxation law. Sounds good.

Ok not bad I spent abt 5 hrs on this post. woohoo. can go sleep liao. tmr got xmas service. Merry X'mas to myself. "Dear Lord, I just pray for a gd rest tonight and able to wake up early in the morning to find a gd parking lot! I also pray for a gd experience tmr and god you prepare my heart tmr. I also pray for some activites after service too. Thank you in Jesus name and amen!"

2005-12-24T17:09:00.000+08:00

Today quite fun day. Went winsor and econ home. Ministering old folks is really energy draining man... the 1st home almost worn me off already. 2nd home was easier, just sing haha. walk ard talk talk, distribute some food and chit chat with the old folks there.

But ARGH............. I ended my day badly man. Right after sending esther and shuyun back, got into an accident. Damn sian.... HOHOHO santa claus is coming to town. I just blessed all my bonuses this year by giving presents to everyone and paying up the damages and the car expenses for 2 weeks.. Woo! I really wonder what's the outcome on Tues. Big lesson learn today, when raining or wet floor, drive as slow as possible. My van's speedometer was definitly not sounding so i'm driving less than 70, but wet floor really makes so much difference. While sending min back, was about to stop at the junction to go to her house, then i realise my brakes totally have no effect and wheel locked because I jam brakes, but too late I skided and bang into the woman's nissan sunny. I think she also sian... 7 mths old car kenna bang by me. My van didn't damage much, but I think the nissan sunny quite bad, the Bumper definity broken coz the van 2 "hook-holes" pierce thru the bumpers causing 2 holes. The boot dented and got "pop-up" abit. Water definitly can go through the boot. ARGH SIAN..... hold the van 2 days got accident liao. Dunno what the mgmt will say.... hopefully my bonuses can cover man. Dear Lord, "I just wanna commit the entire situation in your hands lord. I pray for protection over the next 2 weeks that there will not be another accident and it will be a fruitful practice to keep my driving skills there and not get rusty. I pray for prompting from holy spirit to drive extra slower and extra carefully. Thank you lord and Amen!"

No plans for today already so just stay at home and slack till tmr for service.

2005-12-19T21:42:00.000+08:00

hoho 6 days to christmas. One year over, one year older. It's been a while since my last post. Just did some christmas shopping and blew a BIG hole in my pocket. haha. But I find it fun looking at people giving me the "stunt" look. 25 bottles of this please and the salesgal gave me a blur looked. Just bought 2 full year supply of shower form loh. crazy.... Can't believe I did that. But Rather than buying those "wu eh bo eh ming qia" might as well buy something pratical. After that tekan the wrapping counter service's staffs for wrapping all up. hahaha. After the wrapping, they thank me for giving them such "challenging" job. Well I just kept quiet, because I never said you have to finish wrapping them up.

Just finished my standard chartered marathon 05 as well. Found my marathon photos haha but wah lao not nice leh coz at 40km i really super shack liao. Most of the photos are all my super shag out face... so sad...

Anyway it's been a fun run took me freaking 6 hrs to complete. Not enough training lah...only train up to 14 then go run 40... Almost killed myself... If you ask me if i will to run next year. Wah tough question to answer. I will probably try again if i have PROPER training.

Lately knew this girl for abt 3 weeks, she's beautiful, very-talented, there's one shot that really captures me totally. She was hugging a small pillow had this sweet peaceful, secured/precious expression like hugging a baby. That shot really melted me man. Anyway she just attracts me totally haha. A word to describe her "AWESOME". Noticed her since last year but just didn't get a good chance to get to know her indepth, but I thank god for the opportunity to get to know her better this time. Every conversation with her is so enjoyable and sometimes mind-blowing and even jaw-dropping. Haha. On some occasions I even went to the extend of writting down what she's likes, her hates, her dislikes, her favorites and etc. Talk about big time crush huh. But too bad I think she got someone in mind already. Time to wake up and face it. hee. Will do pray for other open doors. May be it's time to notice what my other friend's likes, dislike and favourites as well.

Last night watched pride and prejudice with Edna, pretty cool classic romance show. But very fairy tale though. Too bad my england just not there, had a hard time catching what they are talking about.

Wah 12.24am. Better go sleep liao. Tmr still got work.

2005-10-08T14:29:00.000+08:00

Woh it's October already! 50 more days down for marathon and I joined the 42... cham haven't been running since my knees gave me problem.. now come to think of it, to clock 42 in 8 week.... abit fierce... probably got to start at 10, 15, 20, 25, 30, 35 and 40... that's just nice to hit 42 at the end of it. Oh well see how lah, need to find kakis for this liao. Wonder if xuan jing recovered already. She also stop for the past 1 month for her cough liao. lol

Anyway, haven't been blogging for the past 3 weeks too lazy to write and haven't got time to edit how the achieves going to work yet. After this post will see how later.

This week got quite a few things to do for bible study. Reflections for the past 8 chapters on foundation and doing new series on discipleship and a recap on shield of faith to share on friday. Looks like I need to exercise... getting real dry at this. This weeks seems to be 1,3,5,7 on bible study, 2,4 on preparation and 4 on guitar. 6 is probably my only free day and if i'm gonna start training up.. seems like my life don't include family time again... kinda off balance.. The word says focus on god and everything else will be in place but I don't see how am I going to spend time with my parents when I don't even get to see them. This seriously doesn't look right... This has been going on for the past 1 year + eversince I started work. As I'm typing this, I felt quite bad. I felt like totally detached from the family and It's as if i'm just renting a room every month.

Heard that Joyce fare quite badly for the prelims, felt pretty sad because 1 or 2 months ago, I gave her a gift, probably the most expensive gift I ever gave so far hopefully to be able to encourage her to study well. But looks like the plan didn't go so well. God I pray that your hands will be on her for this period of time that she will see that her results is for herself, for you and for her future. I pray that you will instill discipline into her and give her revelation that what grades her peers got, got absolutely nothing to do with her. They are not a benchmark for her lord, but the benchmark is set by you lord. And your benchmark for your children is to be able to do everything in excellance not to glory ourselves but to glorify you god. I understand very well that the day I decided to fight for my own future alone to break the norm of my peers is the day I know I'm not living for my peers but for myself and now I understand all the critical decisions I make in the past you have played a part so that I would be able to know you God. God I know your divine plans allows her to get such grades, and to lost her artwork is for a purpose. I don't know what is your plan for her father, but I'm standing in between to intercede for her that your hands will be merciful on her lord. Of coz dear lord, as a mere human, I cannot comprehend what good will it do if she's going to do badly for her exams but i'm gonna claim what you have said in your word.

matthew
⁷"Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. ⁸For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened. ⁹"Which of you, if his son asks for bread, will give him a stone? ¹⁰Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a snake? ¹¹If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him! ¹²So in everything, do to others what you would have them do to you, for this sums up the Law and the Prophets.

So father I ask for excellance grade, excellance health with large mental capacity and wisdom to be upon her during this period of time lord that she will be able to soar like an eagle for you after the exams that she will do so well that it will glorify your name and her testimony of your graciousness and mercy will be able to hit so many people around in her life to know that your existance is not another myth or religion but of truth and righteouness and they will come to know you lord. Thank you Jesus, I claim this good news to come in advance. Amen!

Saw pat's blog, got a south park character of me. Looks quite like me leh. haha here's the pic. Ok played paintball on my birthday so that's why he put a rifle in the picture. Looks pretty cool. I thought he would put badminton racket or something. but not bad lah rifle looks cool.

Ok let's recall the events that past for the past 3 weeks.

7 oct - Pentalcoast, wedding favour demo and supper

Felt so ignored trying to get people's attention just for dinner. I thought it was quite a simple thing, just answer yes or no... wedding favours demo, I estimated it will take about 8 hours to finish everything with 10 people . Let see if i'm correct.

6 oct - guitar, presentation week
Aiyoh today really cannot make it ah.... my music are totally muffled even though I can strum and sing. Looks like i need alot of practise on this. Oh Gwen bought show me her new Ipod. haha finally decided to get Ipod when she was comparing Iriver H10. Ipod still wins for the looks, so it teaches me, if the product looks good, even the function is limited, it will still win. Anyway it she had told me earlier, I would have ask her sis to get for her instead coz I remember apple gave discount for students. Anyway too bad, she spend extra $50 for it and she's quite sad about it. haha.

5 Oct - Roland's wedding gift, dinner at dunman with drew, meet vince at kallang mac to talk cock and pool at east coast.
Finally decided on how to settle roland's gift but ex leh. $380 in total just to have a 1.5m x 1m transparent acrylic with 25 pages of reverse stickers. We thought of doing ourselves and I'm pretty confident we can work it out, but it's a good thing we throw everything to them to work lah, coz today got wedding favour to do. heng ah.

decided to go dinner with drew, after all the suggestion decided to go dunman market, wanted to meet rachale but she lazy to come out. haha. So went there for wantan mee. wah liew closed.... end up having prawn mee, carrot cake and rojak. Full man... If I continue to eat like this, in 6 mths i'm pretty sure i will catch up andrew man. haha

vince was at kallang mac, so drove down to chit chat while andrew waiting for charlotte as the gals are having gals outing. vince can really joke man... and I found out I better discount 80% of what he's saying. hahaha. Poor Joyce, got smoke as usual on the cow thing. ha ha

After that vince suggested pool, so went for east coast for pool. Next time i know who to jio haha.

1 Oct - Badminton
Good turn out that night, Chel, rol, edna, vincent(edna's bf), eileen and myself. Not much challenge though but still enjoyable. haven't been playing for a while.

28 Sep - bridging night
The pic we took that day.
Still couldn't grasp the game well and pat who always do stunts.. sian ah... and min, quite sly when it comes to bridge. Got trick a few times by her when she was my opponent and poor joyce, got killed so many times when she was my partner. Only remembered 1 game where my cards are extremely good. Grab all the sets by myself. haha.

I realised I look quite ah beng in the pic, but don't feel like cutting my hair as I spend quite abit to bleech and dye leh. Ok lah See how long can it grow before I cannot take it and back to spike hairdays. haha.

Oh this day was my official increment as well. hehe but like not enough man.... it's only the 8th and I left with 1/10 of my pay for this mth haven't include rol's ang bao and gift cham ah. Looks like I got to eat bread for the next 2 weeks.

24 Sep -Gwen's birthday card
Ok "Kio" arrow from esther to help do her birthday card. instructions was so vague, totally required my own initative to do it. Well the card i did is there. I kinda got new idea for birthday card next time, can do something like roland's gift. Nice, professionally made with personal touch. But the cost will be quite high though unless I do my own acrylic with reverse stickers. Anyway I took like 3 hours to finish her card and went around the entire city hall to buy flowers for her. Give card without anything like something missing leh. Ok lah managed to find a florist that still opens but the cost wasn't as cheap as the Sunflowers bouquet I gave Esther though. The best part is, i'm very unsure if Gwen would come church on Sun even though my impression never remember once she miss church. Still got to play safe lah, buy flowers then she never come how? Walk around with the flowers in my hand meh? I will look even more dumb then probably people will think I have interest in her to make matter worst. So came up with the lamest excuse in my life, borrow SOP cd from her on Sunday so that she would come. Aiyoh I really can be real lame at times. Unfortunately, I still can't escape giving the wrong impression to others like Min... Hai... still say so loud whether I want to share the cost of the flowers. Anyway wanted to get the white Gerberas though coz I got feeling gwen would wear white/green to church but they don't look fresh leh, if not she will look very matching with the flowers and the card. Too bad it's was quite a last min thing. Anyway the white t-shirt she tio comments, "looks like table cloth made into t-shirt". lol but seriously it's looks good lah. Suit her very well.

Here's another pic she sent me when she open the bouquet. Wah open liao quite chio and big leh compare to the hand bouquet. Didn't expect it. Bright huh. Hope it can brighten her for the next one mth.

Any more events that past.... oh well can't remember liao. Only remember my 1 week leave I spend most of my days at home playing ps2... what a way to spend my leave...

Ok going to go go down church to help out with the wedding favours already.

2005-09-18T16:58:00.000+08:00

How I spent my last 2 days.

Friday
I was the decor team for sat's event. So had to do some shopping. Went down concourse to look for things. Bought lanterns, lightsticks, sparklers lighters and etc. Bought a whole bag of stuff man and I just realised army lightsticks are really expensive..... Wanted to do more shopping to see gain new ideas on the decor, then I realise walking around with a big bag of stuff is really challeging man until I pratically give up and decided to just slack at TCC bugis for a cup of "ultimate blended hazelnut" coffee.

Sat till 5.30 I think, went straight to bedok to get the chips and lighters and had dinner as well. Went to church for cell and surprise surprise.... birthday celebration in advanced. Wasn't really prepared for it...

Saturday

Hoho, shack out day... met Eugene and friends for a game of paintball at Orchid Country Club. For the first time, CS for real... Got shot a few times but the worst shot was on my neck.. Ouch, I think it will take a few days to get heal. Check out my bruise.. The bruise is pretty bad. Lost 3 - 0... haha. So pai seh but no choice, got scared after the neck shot.... played with "hum ji ness" instead and can't be bother win the objective anymore. Was more like aiming for flesh instead. LOL. Was really tiring even though we only played 3 rounds.. everybody was totally shack out. See later will they send the pic. Got pic will put it up.

I think this round was very not cost-effective. I shot like 60 - 80 rounds, but it cost me $55... and everybody else was shooting like nobody business.... when most of them were out of ammo, the game ended and I still have half loh... nevermind, there's always a first time, the next time I will be more prepared for sure.

Ok paintball ended. Rush down to church to setup decor. Invited Karine down and plan to pick her up at bedok, but she was late so she took a cab down instead. So went to pick min's food and friend up then back to church. And Karine arrived also. Was pretty stunt when she put on make up. She really caught my eyes. Aiyah now I realised, never took photo with her!! aiyoh so dumb... Should have ask Roland to take with his Canon 20D... wasted ah...

Ok after all the drooling, something unexpected happened though.. didn't expect the heat of the candles to snap my nylon threads. 2 liners snapped.. so didn't have time to redo. Just got to continue with the rest of the programs. Had some games, 1st game "the price is right"... wah lao the items are really out of my league loh. Nobody in my group was able to guess the prices. Ok game ended and the "Aunties" won.

Dinner started, quite a spread! All the food shiok ah, curry lah, fried rice lah, chicken grati, pasta and etc... As usual.. too much food cannot finish. Luckily got youth service. So haha food is gone! It's always good to have some youths around whenever we are can't finish our food. If not "zhong ji mi ma" again.....

Ok 2nd part of the game started. Animal game... practise on friday, so i thought aiyah chicken feet no problem. Scali today make most mistakes is me loh.... I think I really caught our group's "blurness" loh. This is bad.......

Ok "punishment" time, so the game was to pass message with actions only. First one, "Spit, fined $500", I caught the spit part, the 2nd part, dunno what joyce action was... so end up haha hilarious...

2nd one... "bar top" dancing... when it came to me, wah liew.... fun was like putting her hand on my shoulder and walking around me loh... what a big difference!

3rd one.. "starwars" my turn to act. haha i think i act quite well, immediately ppl knew the message but poor fun.. totallly had no idea what I was doing... She end up hacking Joyce and davyd end up hacking esther as well. aiyoh.... but the moment I did my original action esther caught it. haha. Proved my "acting" still ok. hehe

Ok the fun was over. Time for some sharing of instead and seriously, I have totoally no idea on the entire story of mid-autumn festival meaning until Tuan Yee explains it. He shared the gospel as well and did it very intellgently, instead of telling what Christ did for everyone, which I personally think will turn everybody off because it was meant to be a eat, drink and get merry event for the friends we invited and if he's going to start "ok let bow our head and with our eyes closed, anyone who wishes to accept christ pls raise your hand..." I'm pretty sure next time it will be hard to invite the same people down man. Haha.

oh well time for the lanterns and sparklers time. Should have bought more of the thin light sticks although personally I prefer the 6" ones. Anyway they started the sparklers off, did some "stunts". Some pretty impressive and some haha, it's just seeing who's gonna get hurt. lol. When you guy guys with fire.... that's normally what will happen i guess. haha

Karine invited me down for zouk since it's their closing night, ok lah long time never go chiong liao took this chance. Met her friends, darren and clement, pretty cool guys to hang out with. Had some drinks and dance after so long. Kinda forget how to dance already... prefer to dance when i'm "higher" abit, the long island took abit of effect but still pretty mild. Mind too clear hard to dance. Also this is probably the first time I see karine dance. Wah she danced well man and it's great to see another side of her. The impression she always give is always quiet, demure gal. Finally got to know her better. But I think it's must been a terrible night for her, getting cuts for 3 times on the same leg because of shattered glasses..

Went for supper after that, roti prata was terrible though and finally ended around 3.30. The 2 guys are living in woodlands and central, so took the duty to send Karine back. She look so tired that she slept through out the ride. haha. Finally reach home around 4.20, bath and slept.

Sunday
Ok alarm clock went off twice... but as usual cannot get up man... it's really a struggle to go service today. But I still made it anyway. Probably halfway through the service. Learn to trust god's strength, trust that he's our provider, learn to trust God's sight. Application? haha different story and it's really to unlearn and relearn to put our trust in him.

Learn that min and tuan yee have sparkle off something in the mid week. Ok lah, must be they got together already. Felt happy for them. Aiyah now got a new thing to struggle... envy for seeing couples liao... cham... must let envy get into my head.

Ok woo long story today even though I made it real short. time for davyd's farewell dinner and tonight looks like i need to struggle with my work again. Pray that I get things work out tonight.

2005-09-11T23:00:00.000+08:00

Finally A Slack Day to Spend

Have been doing nothing since afternoon till now. Finally a day to slack after so long. It's been ages since I last slack. Haha. Looking forward for my leave to come, it's been a year since I last took my leave. Haven't plan how to spend it though but should be spending some time with my parents. Ok see how after mid-autumn event is over.

2005-09-10T13:52:00.000+08:00

My First Blog Design

Came across this cool picture in deviantart and decided to start a blog. The meaning of the picture is actually "U are always in my heart. For the loveliest and most loveable person in my life. I love you. *notice the letter "U" inside the heart" by 7th-Heaven-Creative. Must give back credit to the person who created this excellant picture. Somehow this picture reminds me of 1 Peter 1:23 so decided to add my own words in.

Managed to get my design to work with blogspot.... took me a day to find out how their margin, css and template tags work... wooo.... ok it's still up in the end. Alot more to work on but better than nothing. Still prefer to use dreamweaver.. so much easier except that I lazy to create the blog engine myself.

Anyway last night was a amazing night. Felt so happy for Esther who finally got herself a bf, I know it was coming the moment the min and co was asking andwith Esther "can't face the world" face. is just that "Victor"? HUH That was really somebody I never thought of coming across. LOL Ok.... All things are possible through God huh.

Ok more ideas coming later to see how to beautify the site.